Tuesday, April 10, 2007
Mixed feelings....
Should i feel happy or sad? im very confused right now. i can be very very happy at one moment, and the next moment i will become very sad. perhaps it's the 'natural' occurance happening among the boys who are enlisting real soon. i felt happy is cuz i have many buddies whom i can spend my fun moments with. i felt sad is cuz im gonna cut short my time with them, and especially my family. lols its been a great time since we met each other, my frens..
today i stayed home all day. dwelling on things that have made an impact in my life. realised that i have many lessons to learn from my failures.
its indeed alot. ever since i left my sec sch, many things changed. pple changed, things changed. well the thing that affected me the most is my friendship with andy. its really lucky that i've met him as a fren, cuz he always brings joy to pple around him. lols another thing is that he brought another bunch of frens who happened to have the same traits as me - the crappy trait. haha its becuz of him that i've found my bunch of true frens. those who will actually help you when u are in trouble. perhaps is this 'thing' that keeps our friendship going. this thing is 'truthfulness'.
looking back to my past relationship, actually that relationship was my first love in my life. although it ended shortly but i hope those nice moments when we are together will be kept in my memory. i appreciate ur presence and those are one of the best moments of my life. our love is shortlived. however its too late now. i guess u have already found ur other partner. though i still regret but it's useless. i've learnt to let it go...it is only through lost that i've learn to cherish.
anyway, life is not perfect. we cannot always have good things that happen smoothly in ur way. bad moments sure will occur in life n all we can do is to endure through it. we must face every problem and not avoid them. and it's through facing the problems that we pick up precious lessons and we can then avoid making the same mistakes in the future. however we must not face certain problems alone. wad are frens for? they are there to guide u and help u thru the way. in my life, im glad that i have many good frens that are willing to help me thru. though in my past yrs, i've seen certain 'fake' pple who pretend to be ur fren. but all of them are in the past. that is why i really cherish what i had now. the future is bright, i have to make use of every possible chances to build the path to my success. i can do it.
ps: 2 more days. im couting every minute and second as my precious moments. =)
Let's Rock!
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