Friday, December 29, 2006
a few more days to the new 2007. time has really passed. so many things happened and many many feelings are involved. this yr has made me more matured and i know how to deal with certain things in a more effective way. the childish old me has already died and the new me is here ready to strike. hope this new year brings me new hopes and adventure, and hope that this new yr will be a fruitful one though most of the time i will be in NS which takes most of my time with my frens away. hope we can still stay in touch. haha.
so let me sum up this yr's happenings. hmmm, beginning of the year nth much. just leap camp and some common tests which is really stressful. haha, though everyone had fun, but they are still stressed up. moving on to mid yr, yea. this is the time where most of us started to be really serious in our work cuz the A lvls are coming. haha. nth much during the holidays, except mugging and mugging. it feels endless at that point of time. but to think of it now, its really nice to mug cuz i can focus on it and i wont stray my mind off. i miss those days in sch where i can share jokes and laughter with my classmates. now im all alone with a few good buddies. haha lucky i got to know them. if not my life will be really dull. thx for the fun brothers. =)
movin on to august and september, this period of time im really down. my grandfather has passed away, and my great grandmother too. haiz. yea i know, pple have to leave someday. life is really short. just only a few decades. we must cherish every good moments in life. besides this i have to focus on my studies and to score well for prelims which i didnt. really regretted.
now on the last lap of my study journey. october and november. this period of time can be said as the most crucial moment of my life. the A lvls. lol. i hope i did well in this exam cuz i really put in alot alot of effort in it. i really sat down to concentrate and study. besides the A lvls, during these month i can be said as also the happiest person in the world. she is there to support me, for the exams and for everything. thx for the happy moments. i wont ever forget this in my life.
but i regretted during this month. dont wanna elaborate too much on it. its been posted in the previous posts. this month has been gruelling. work and work. no choice. i have no money to spent on the outings so i have to earn it myself. this month has been quite lonely. it will be worst without my buddies. thx for always calling me out for the outings u all planned. really enjoyed it. haha.
okays, this is my short short summary of 2006. hope 2007 will be a better year for me and for u who is reading my blog. haha. to all my frens, happy new year 2007! =)
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10:35 AM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
its been a day since christmas is over, haha today is boxer's day?is it the day where pple wear boxers? hahaha okay, its lame. =X anyway, these few days have been quite boring cuz there are not much outings and im very bored at work. some customers are really zzzzz. damn gl. lol no choice la. working in this line requires lots of patience. lucky i have the patience to bear with their horrible words. =) so its okay. hahaha. wad a lonely christmas yesterday. spent time chatting on msn..LOL okay, its not that boring =X. i often wonder why there is this feeling deep inside of me that messes my thoughts. its been around with me since last month and i couldn't fight it off. lols. very strange i noe. i think its because i dont have a definite answer to the things i do and the thoughts i think. yea to simply put it, its super complicated.
These few days i have been spending time at home and work. rather bored. at home, either msn or maple zzzzz, no life man. outside, all i see is the cashier machine that has a drawer which can pop out for me to put money in it. daily routine. however so far working as a cashier, i have not lost my 'balance'. lols which means i didnt take extra money or lose money. wahaha hope i can get the bonus at the end of the month. xD it takes quite a bit of effort to maintain this balance u know. haha
oh yes, tml im having my off day! yes! wahaha. go chiong sakae with b cube at hougang point. woolala. xD finally a day off work for me to enjoy~ xD
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4:24 PM
Saturday, December 23, 2006
guess human feelings are really fragile. just read someone's blog. tats a real bad scenario. worst than mine. imagine a person u have taken so close to you for 3 yrs and that person have been deceiving you during these period of time, how will you feel? hope tat person get well soon =). its really saddening. talking about second chances, i dont think its worth it. to me is total contradictory cuz here i am disuading pple of second chances, but im holding to that hope. i felt that's real silly of me but i still hoping and waiting. guess aries man are like tat ba. i've got a list of characteristics of aries man. hope it can help those who are the same horoscope as me. =)
He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won't make him fall easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel. Once he determine to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion. You will never see his emotion of burden or disappointment and always wonder what he thinks or feels. He will well kept his feeling. You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business. He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so you will see he is the type who visit his parents steadily or often. He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important person for you. Once he is in the "Power Position", he will use his power gently. He is a good leader and "Gentleness" is one of his effective method for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader. He never hide his ambition, and he is a workaholic. he will not take any position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal and satisfaction. Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he want his deserved reward. His deep insecurity make him reach and collecting valuable things, and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think of him and want to get good comments or compliments. Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and keep up his "Image". One method of cover up you could easily notice is suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding. This is the man who never hurry to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him that you are "breaking up" , you better forget him for good because he will never coming back. He always keep his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2 hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or unavoidable things happen. He hate people who is late for date or any appointment. He like to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girl friend or his wife at work because competition already exist with himself and other people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do not try to over power him or insult him, he can not stand it. He likes to be in control of every things, every situations. He like a "Classy Woman" ,if she also comes from a good family then it is a Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type of woman , forget it. He like a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He tend to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will act very moody to show you instead. He like to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that way. If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling around too much. He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what to do, right! If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman , polite and can get along with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man will be like a chicken in your palm.
The above are extracted from the internet. For ur own reference =).
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9:58 PM
Friday, December 22, 2006
im back to blog again. lols. many things happened this week. okay firstly, monday to wednesday. i went to queenstown for the cashier training. it was pretty good. haha pay us to sit in an aircon room throughout the course. how i wish everyday i have work like tat! =P! haha. but anyway i've completed my training and now im a qualified cashier. can open my own counter le. hahaha but stressful during the time when im going home cuz need to report my earnings and account for every cent i've miscalculated. lols lucky so far i have not broken my record of the balance of $0.00 lols not bad. felt quite confiden as a new cashier..haha
immediately after my training course, i went down for B³ chalet at the PA holiday flats. It was fun! hahaha. how i wish i can stay longer T.T no choice got work ma. posted back to punggol plaza to work. anyway i had alot of fun during the chalet. they had games planned and it was really nice to play with them. they are so ON. hahaha i felt very happy with them. confirm got jokes with them around. lols. this is definitely a really good bunch of friends i've ever known. thank fate for letting me to know them. xD although i didnt spend really alot of time with them but i cherish every moment i spent with them. hope i can get to go out with them soon. haha xD but i only got one day off per week. zzzzz
back to me. nowadays really quite busy ba. but i like it. haha at least i wont stone at home and do nothing and waste electricity on the computer. but still, i still not very used to the life without her. really very strange. i felt like i've dropped into a cliff and im struggling to climb back to the top without any equipments. hmmm perhaps this is what fate decide for me. anyways, i hope i can get out of it as soon as possible and totally return back to the original me. i've been strange these few days. sorry to those whom i've acted strangely to =x cant help it. haha from now on i will work hard for myself. at least must succeed in doing smth in my life. as for relationships, i have to see if a lucky girl comes along. haha i shall not go for it for the moment xD at least in this way i wont fall into tat deep cliff again. =)
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10:56 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
just started working first day as a cashier at fairprice..lols..not bad. can learn how to use the EPOS n the POS machine. lots of buttons. lol. first day of work, quite nervous la..cannot say dont have..haha..sure got abit of nervousness..cuz alot of customers ma den need to pack and scan very fast. the attachment lady was v kind. she has alot of patience in teaching me those stuffs which is very complicated. (thx alot! haha..i will learn as much as i can =P) working really relieves alot of thinking from my brain. haha..cuz when im at home i tend to use my brain to think of things tat is rather useless and beyond my control. stressful man..haha i rather put my time into work and earn some extra cash to use. haha
hmmm..when im at home..really tired..nice feeling! ( im not a sadist ) but getting tired is better than have so much energy and dono where to spent it -> cannot sleep also. haha and is like toturing myself to stay at home and think about all those stuffs which is rather unproductive and useless. waste brain power also. and is also bad for health.. haha and getting tired lets me just lay on the bed and sleep myself away for the night. hahaha..
okays..now my fav team man utd has drawn a match with lille for the european champions league..yes! they will have a higher chance of winning the title..wahaha! not like 2005 champion vs 2006 champion. liverpool vs barcelona..haha one of them will be out for the quarter finals..yes! nice match..haha hope liverpool win. cuz the next team against them will have a higher chance of getting the title.
okays enough of crap..haha waiting for my deathnote 11 to finish downloading. =P
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10:53 AM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
so many days have passed by.i felt so empty. its a feeling i didnt feel b4 at all. its terrible..suffocating me.. Nothing is forever i noe. but i stil believe that love still can last forever. there are life examples of forever love. but i just cant achieve it. anyway i cant do it alone too. love works 2 ways. well, cant force anything that doesnt belong to me. i just had to accept this fact. everyday i wake up, had this terrible image in my mind. i wanna run away from it but the road seemed endless. never ending. im starting to dislike the love angel. why do u bring me into it and left without me? u left me in emptiness. i cant get back to my life like last time again. pls bring me out of it. im suffering. the silly side of me is still holding on. i wonder why. everyday i told myself to let go, but the silly side of me still holding on. im in total contradiction. argh! i wanna learn to let go cuz i love her too much.
anyway, i've found a job at fairprice as a cashier. hope by working i can remove tat painful memory from my mind. time can heal everything i guess. but time can also spoil things. hmmm hope everything goes smoothly from now on ba. don let me fall again. it hurts.
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11:37 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
hmm...yesterday went for the airforce seminar..haha and i signed up for airforce! hahaha xD hope i get in ba...must pass their medical and interview. Pilot or WSO also can la. As long i got in can already xD haha. the talk was pretty long but they intro alot alot of stuffs which we normally dono about airforce normally. it was indeed a good experience! and the pay was even better. =P hmm..saw my classmate a girl at the seminar o.O! i wonder why there are so many girls at the airforce seminar which was meant for males as we are serving our NS. anyway im sure they dont post a threat as i think im capable of getting a place b4 them. wahahaha xD eh eh?
these few days are sure boring! im bored almost to the core. hope i can get a place for job at cheers. hmmm..okays..let this post be a short and swt one..haha. nth much to say also. =P
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12:30 PM
Thursday, December 07, 2006
days and days have gone by for this holiday..how i wish holidays hasnt started..i felt so aimless in life..Especially without my angel..My world will never be complete without you!!
These few days has been really stressful for me. i had to deal with lots of emotions going through my head and my mother's nagging. (-_-)!! oh please..why cant she let me decide for myself? Wad she like doesnt mean i like also ma..haiz..stop nagging at me pls!! i need silence for my head to think through.
Anyway, yesterday's ice skating has been fun! thx andy! hahaha..thx for organising it..though those skater shoes sucks ( which made my ankle bleed T.T ) but overall it has been fun. xD i felt pity for her as she paid $11.50 for it. Her ankle is sprained and hasnt recovered, so she's just paying money to go ice skating with us not to her own good. hmmm...next time better wait for everyone to be well and good b4 doing anything..haha xD
Hope my job application is successful and hope i can start work as soon as possible. i need $$ for my outings with B³!! especially the upcoming chalet. i can hardly wait for it..hahaha
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2:31 PM
Monday, December 04, 2006
its been a week since i last updated..whee..haha i need to recover and get back to wad i need to do~! i must work! ARGH..everyday at home is really really really boring..facing the four cold walls and looking at this stupid computer screen for nuts. i need freedom!! argh!!...someone pls ask me out lei..zzzz play pool or anything also can..just dont make me stay at home..i will think of bad things again and hurt myself..anyway i still haven gotten over it. Its torturing me everyday, makes me cant eat sleep do anything. it sucks. =( i've been praying for a second chance but i dont think it will ever work. NV hope for it again..it wont ever work..
Okay..enough of these craps..get back to the point..nth much to do these few days..looking for jobs but still no replies yet. hahaha..anyway hope i will be able to get one soon xD tats all for today. =)
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9:52 PM
